hmm. sweet, oh sweet insomnia.. got home from work at 3:30am.. suckage. buut i made almost a bill and a half so that was pretty cool.
my dead laptop reserected itself (making it a zombie? oooh *shiver* t3 zombies... O_O ) and i got rid of the big dinosaur (my ancient laptop that weighs, oh say, 15 lbs..) so things are good there..
um.. the cats are still driving me to the brink of insanity, along with the 95 lb wolf that thinks hes a lapdog *_*
but on another note, my boyfriend is thinking about going to the marines. not too sure how i feel on that one. i mean, on the lighter side, if we get married before he goes, they take care of his school, help me with mine, and we both get insurance and health benifits and whatnot (that we really need in the first place). but on the darker side of the option is, well, to put it shortly, death. its his choice if this is what he really wants to do, then im behind him 100% but i dont know how ill deal if he doesnt come back from deployment. and thats even saying that he deploys to a war stricken area. i just know that i'd have a better chance as a female to survive the military because they dont send many women to war. men are just simply a different story. i just keep having images (thanks, brain) of meeting his platoon mate at the airport instead of him, holding dogtags and a look of sympathy, remorse, and heartbreak. its vivid and slightly unnerving, to say the least.
BUT anyway. im actually cooking for thanksgiving this yr. i didnt say the turkey, but its a start. making home made fried squash (yummi) just like my granny makes it. i havent told her im bringing it yet either. hope they like it.. i do so if they dont, ill pig out. im fine with that lol. my boss made meaty bean..stuff for me (she makes it REALLY well and its tasty *yeah, i sampled the goods, bite me*) to take with me to the lunchon thing so thats cool too. gonna be a lot of food and a lot of people.. 17ish i think.
and then its on to my mommas (her 21st-and-counting birthday was today) and im gonna hang with it til monday n then come home aaaand ..
sleep.
probly.
so, im getting tired and i feel better so im outta here. nite. thnx for **trying** to read the big block of senseless uncapitalized rambling text. makes me feel loved.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

**edit** so i tried to make it easier on the eyes and less daunting for those of you who chose to try and read my journal. not to say it worked but meh. goodnite yall.